*MY REFLECTIONS..*

Day 18 - Without HIM

Yesterday nite after a nice sweet short conversation with HIM, I laid down on my bed smiling to myslf for about an hour or so till I was interrupted by a rcvd sms msg. To my surprise, it's Scorpio AGAIN! And d msg says....."The year is coming to an end. As I wish to keep my vows which I had made but also can't expect things to turn out the way I want. I thank you for loving me before....as it already seems that you are moving on and you're happy with it..I really hope so. I am sorry to cause of any hurt or trouble to you as I am & can't be a perfect person. Please forgive me..please do. My hope is that..one day, you'll understand. Please do forgive me."

It's a shame for some people....why must they only realise a little to late?? I guess this is what they always said 'You've got it...till it's gone'..In Scorpio's case, for the whole 2 years of our relationship, He damn well Had a KEEPER...but he juz didn't noe how to TREAT her... In mine, I wasn't faking on what I felt for Scorpio...for whole bloody 2 yrs, Scorpio swayed in & out my life. Scorpio magically appeared & mysteriously disappeared as I waited patiently with full of faith, love & hope. Till Scorpio gone missing again & the only change I made this time round was to open my door 4 other invites. I've said to myself...the beautiful soul whom is gonna fall for me, must LOVE me no matter how difficult a time I'm gonna gv him. He must bear with my irritatingly sudden angst & moodiness which I purposely came up with juz to see how far he can endure it. And you noe what? Tt person is my Aquarius...Even after a difficult first date, Aquarius still asked me out again on d NEXT DAY!!! and tt's not the end...infact Aquarius asked me out every evening consecutively for d whole week! Aquarius juz simply didn't gave up until he gets to see my real true colours....in other words d actual real ME. Smhow rather...during d first few dates...he juz felt tt I'm NOT being myslf when I gv HIM tt hard time....he tried again & again until he 'breaks the ice' & gotten ME to get really2 comfortable being around him, talking to him, laughing with him & smiling at him. Without much a-do, I fell for his willingness & further trials on getting to noe me better..who is Siti Nadiah Natra actually. Is she truly this petite gal whom covers & hides her bitter past with womanly firmness?? Or is she this sweet always smiling cheerful gal whom always laughing on jokes...not to mention even d corniest of all jokes..?? For 3 yrs, I've 4gotten tt I was the always smiley..always cheerful...always laughing individual till an Aquarius helped me in search & find back the most precious treasure I've lost during d whole 3 yrs. And tt treasure is called 'Happiness & Bliss'. I'm glad tt I've found what I've lost.......& vowed tt I will nvr lose it again...no matter...nvr again.

Signing Off,

Nadiah NATRA

P/S : 'You've got it...till it's gone' In my wrds...I've gotten tt Aquarius....but I'll nvr let it be gone.

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