*MY REFLECTIONS..*

Bali trip date confirmed liao!!! Yeeehaaa!

Youoooooohoooooooo all! :D I hope everyone had a good well-spent long weekend ya.. Mine was great. Had another date with Aquarius. He thought that since we are going to Bali pweety soon.., he took me to a pre-bali 'snacking-chilling-drinking' session over @ Villa Bali. I've never been there b4 so I was kinda excited & all.. Villa Bali is located along Pasir Panjang Road..chet, kinda 4gotten what's tt small lane called. Anywayz, the place is amazing...being called 'Villa Bali' is obvious enough to assume it's ambience & such. Each sitting area was arranged rather spaciously..so each customer can enjoy private conversations while having their drinks & snacks. And so after a few discussions & all...we finally chose a date for the Bali trip & it'll take place on the 23rd till 28th May. Oh my, I really..really..can't wait sey! Why we chose tt date is bcos HE wanted to celebrate my bday,which falls on the 26th May, there. Oh ya.. we'll be accompanied by another couple, Titi & Razi. So tt clearly spells out FUN!! So rite about now, I've started my count down towards 23rd May khekhe. Till the day comes, I'll anticipate every each moment anxiously. Below are the pics taken @ Villa Bali...happy viewing! Till then...........

Tralala-ing Off,

Nadiah NATRA

P/S : I'm so excited....& I juz can't hide it!! :)

Labels: Villa Bali

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* Tuesday, March 18, 2008 *

I NEED A HOLIDAY ASAP!!!

I am so in need of a holiday soon!! Gosh, I felt like I just needed the break away from work (especially), daily life routine, busy city life & oh ya..not to mention but I kinda also need a break away from my own *full-of-ridiculous-thoughts-but-still-there's-potential-possibility* BRAIN!! *Chuckles* I've been whining to Aquarius on wanting to go for a vacation...since a month back & finally yesterday...he AGREED!! Yeay! We're going to Bali...Gosh! like finally I get to go there sey.. He even contacted his balinese fwen to check 4 us on Hotel bookings & all. So we'll be flying there probably late April or May...yet to be confirm as I need to check with my fwens whether they're joining. If they aren't, Aquarius & me will still go anywayz. I'm so excited as it will be my first ever trip to BALI..hehe but NOT for someone though *Roll_Eyes* Aquarius had been to & fro...or should I say..'Bali-ing' since in the nineties. Infact HIS last trip was only July last year..hmmph! Wokay, let's get back to ME & HIM... We planned to vacation there for 5 days, I guess that should be enough..rite? And Aquarius confidently told me yesterday that he's so sure that after this Bali trip...definitely there will be a return trip soon to come & will be counting (chet..trying to confidently assumed my future thoughts & actions k..Mcm real aje..Bluek!) With that trip planned, I need to re-search & check-out on flight tix pweety soon liao.

Alritey..one more issue to bring up...My Aquarius bluetoothed me a song yesterday. He asked me to listen to the lyrics as the song really reminded HIM of ME & very much dedicated to me...aaawww..Sweetness Anywayz, it's an Indonesian Song peeps..Haiz! Since my last 'trying-2-fig-out' an Indo song, Yakin (accoustic) - Radja, transfered by smone to me. I assumed that this new one, Tercipta Untukku - Ungu, is yet gonna be another *repeated mode* 'trying-2-fig-out' word by word...sentence by sentence & understanding it *Grin* Juz incase anyone wanna check it out, below are the Lyrics to the song which I've copied & paste from the Net... Hehehe :-

Tercipta Untukku - Ungu

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu

Membuatku terdiam dan terpaku

Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah

Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata

Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan

Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau s'lalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Di setiap langkah

Yang meyakiniku

Kau tercipta untukku

Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau s'lalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Di setiap langkah

Yang meyakiniku

Kau tercipta untukku

Meski waktu akan mampu

Memanggil s'luruh ragaku

Ku ingin kau tahu

Kau s'lalu milikku

Yang mencintaimu

Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau s'lalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Di setiap langkah

Yang meyakiniku

Kau tercipta untukku

So there u go....I guess it's not a difficult task to relate ain't it?? Aite..for now, wanna go for my 'smoking_while_strolling' session. Until further updates y'all...Peace!

Tralala-ing Off,

Nadiah NATRA

P/S : Hey u Aquarius (u noe who u r)...pls make up ur mind on which sneakers u wanted k..& pls eh... 'All Star Converse' is out of the question k...4 gdness sake it's ur b'day gift dear...*Hugs*

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* Monday, March 17, 2008 *

Been a short pause since my last life updates...

Alritey...it's been kinda awhile since my last updates ya. Been busy & occupied with work lah..what else? *Roll_Eyes* Plus... I've also been dating alot since the whole engagement thingy..hehe with the same dude though..Kwang3. Well, this is how the whole dating thingy came up. After our engagement, life routine gotten back as per usual. We gotten busy with work & d rest of our daily routine. Prior to being tired & restless...we had tiny tiffs throughout those days..Heh! Every little moves, gestures, actions, reactions, assumptions...etc etc could be opted for a good reason on starting a tiny debate which could lead to a tiff then makin' it's way for an argument, disagreement, my say, his say...to a huge miscommunication & misunderstanding..GOSH! Sensitivity..was kinda controllin' our relationship..especially ME *Roll_Eyes_2_Myslf* and tt was only the beginning! Whatever he did, intended or said were pweety much perfectly made wrong by me & all.. But one thing I've learnt frm Aquarius is tt no matter how hard we argued or disagreed on tt particular day, shld be solved..at least try to talk & listen to each other's opinions & reasons on tt same day b4 we make our way bck to our own homes..so tt bad intuitions, negative assumptions & thoughts were not being brought back home left untouched which 'I'm-so-not-kiddin'' can be brought into smthing much uglier k. So we both confronted on what we feel with regards to why we are unhappy. Which left us both teary when both realised that some things were changed unnoticed. It's not like the first few weeks of the relationship. And goodness...those things were the simplest thingy(s) we both cld ever be made to realise of. Things like smiling..yup2, HE voiced out why I don't smile much anymore, why I don't take his hand & put it on my head & leave it there while I drive anymore..And I too voiced out on why I started to feel un-pretty when I'm with HIM, howcome HE could get irritated by ME much easier NOW when HE could stand the most 'irritating ME' during our first few months & all. After noeing tt we both had neglected those simple gestures..which in turn makin' our negative minds conquer...and also it's because of those simple gestures which made us fall for one another in the first plc, we stare blankly in silence. After accepting the whole truth about how on earth could we ever let that slightest stupidest negligence & mistake..Cos we thought we knew better & all, we both embraced each other well *in teary mode* & Ironically @ the same time, say "I'm so sorry" to each other. And thank god...after tt bad argument happened, our relationship gets better & better each day. Even though we meet mostly daily...those daily meetings are juz considered as a routine thingy..so Aquarius will ask me out on a date during our meet-up sessions..For eg, let say 2day after work..we meet up then went for dinner & chill-out till 12midnite...then same routine on the nx day. But then..on the nx day, Aquarius will asked me out on a date like as if it's our first date..He'll go like...are u free to spend ur time with me on this coming Friday for a a nite movie date? But pls do bear in mind tt b4 friday comes...I still see him daily consecutively..haha! But it works..no doubt. I'm excited to see HIM daily without fail..when I'm (a gemini) being well known for getting bored easily. We are engaged to be married but @ the same time we are dating in a serious but fun way. I'm juz hoping & praying for the best..& glad tt He's here with ME now...& I'm not alone anymore now.

Tralala-ing Off,

Nadiah NATRA

P/S : D pic above was taken during our most recent date..khekhe, we went to the beach last Sat.

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* Monday, March 10, 2008 *

Is the past..juz a past??

I'm havin' difficulties even to decide whether I should type-out what I've got to tell & say on the above mentioned subject. And finally after getting signed in then had second thoughts & signed out again the third time...I've decided to just go ahead with it as I thought it might make me feel better. Right about now, after trying to noe & noeing some details & information which I've analysed since the past months had turned-out hurting my own feelings, self-consciousness, attraction-factors & etc. I'm confused about whether am I being too overly sensitive, paranoid & over-cautious.... Is anyone's PAST..juz a PAST?? Which means details & information from the past should not be pondered & wondered upon or compared with the present situation because that was the past & should be forgotten whereas a full focus should be given to the present. OR Is anyone's PAST made them who they are today?? Which means all details & information from the past is very much being kept as a memory of how & what each individual went through to get to their present life.

Being as stubborn as I can be, I analysed a scenerio happened in the past & now...which in return kinda gotten myself backfired. I've found out a little too much & saw some kinda difference in form of reaction, arousals & excitement. The vast comparison within then & now starts to slap me back in my face...infact, damn hard! I thought that I could handle the comparisons, differences, questions...not to mention certainties & other relationship factors which made me lose my confidence in my looks, body & beauty. I broke down badly...wishing that I shouldn't hv started my theorical analyst. Wishing that...if only those things were left unknown, I won't hv to even bother goin' through difficult questionings, revealiations, facts...& other head-spinning idiosyncracy...

HEH!!! *Sigh*

Signing Off,

Nadiah NATRA

Labels: The past

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* Tuesday, March 4, 2008 *

And so...it's already March!!!

To my shock.... it's already March!!! Oh dear..time is way too fast liao. I remembered when I actually commented abt 'it's already March!!!' in one of my post entries last year. It's funny how NOW...I'm complaining abt the same thingy yet again..Heh!!! It's ironic though tt coincidentally it's of the same month heehee. Oh well, what was & presently sure is...no matter how much I complained-and-will-be-complaining......Mr. 'Time' won't give a damn..heh! It'll juz go on and on..haiz. Anywayz, I've not been shopping lately.....hmmm and I have to keep on delegating tt hobby of mine frm my brain juz to discipline myslf for the wedding thingy. So no more chaos dresses, no more shoes shopping, no more fine dinings, no more hotel bookings, no more unnecessary luxuries for me(for now)..........hmmmmmph! But..at least, I can still shop...for Aquarius's 'hantaran' gifts though. I've gotten frm now spreading till December so that there'll be no rushings & stress. The items we both had decided are as below :-

1) Wedding bands

2) A set of jewellery (for me)

3) Watch

4) Toiletries

5) Shoes (Yeay!!!)

6) Handbag (for me...which he stubbornly wanted in the list)

7) Wallet & Belt (for him)

8) ??? We are out of ideas..until I happily asked whether can we get an extra pair of shoes for one another..*Grin* (which he still hv not gv his answer to me yet *Sigh*)

The above are what we had in mind...I didn't put Cosmetics in the list is cos...I thought tt it'll be such a waste(in my opinions). But still.....there's ample time till the actual day so...changes are still applicable. Any ideas peeps? Till then...........

Tralaling Off,

Nadiah NATRA

P/S : I miss chaos dresses badly k!!! And it's pouring pweety heavily now outside *Shivers*

Labels: It's already March

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* Sunday, March 2, 2008 *

Yuck...another monday..geez

2day is another bloody bluey MONDAY...& I juz simply hv been hating & will always will be hating it..PERIOD! Juz now in the morning, I cldn't bring myself up frm bed bcos my body ached and..oh well, my eyez juz wldn't open-up plus noeing tt it had been raining since the early morning...& my bed, pillows not forgetting my blanket..nvr felt oh-so soft & oh-so comfortable b4.....................which eventually resulted me in not able to 'reverse-psycho' myself to get the fcuk up frm my nest :D And tt equals to getting into the office close to lunch-time..Heh! And it's only had been an hour or so since I've stepped in....AND both my eyes are close to being shut down while trying to stare @ my screen..GOSH! What's wrong with me?? Aaaaargh!!! I need to focus myself & start doing my work!! Why am I sleepy?? I slept pweety early yesterday...abt arnd 1.30am <

Haiz...until then..*Yawning*

Tralalaling Off,

Nadiah NATRA

P/S : I'm not kidding k...I am really2 stoned frm being sleepy rite abt now...

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