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Nadiah Natra...
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* Monday, March 10, 2008 *
I'm havin' difficulties even to decide whether I should type-out what I've got to tell & say on the above mentioned subject. And finally after getting signed in then had second thoughts & signed out again the third time...I've decided to just go ahead with it as I thought it might make me feel better. Right about now, after trying to noe & noeing some details & information which I've analysed since the past months had turned-out hurting my own feelings, self-consciousness, attraction-factors & etc. I'm confused about whether am I being too overly sensitive, paranoid & over-cautious.... Is anyone's PAST..juz a PAST?? Which means details & information from the past should not be pondered & wondered upon or compared with the present situation because that was the past & should be forgotten whereas a full focus should be given to the present. OR Is anyone's PAST made them who they are today?? Which means all details & information from the past is very much being kept as a memory of how & what each individual went through to get to their present life.
Being as stubborn as I can be, I analysed a scenerio happened in the past & now...which in return kinda gotten myself backfired. I've found out a little too much & saw some kinda difference in form of reaction, arousals & excitement. The vast comparison within then & now starts to slap me back in my face...infact, damn hard! I thought that I could handle the comparisons, differences, questions...not to mention certainties & other relationship factors which made me lose my confidence in my looks, body & beauty. I broke down badly...wishing that I shouldn't hv started my theorical analyst. Wishing that...if only those things were left unknown, I won't hv to even bother goin' through difficult questionings, revealiations, facts...& other head-spinning idiosyncracy...
HEH!!! *Sigh*
Signing Off,
Nadiah NATRA
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